Monday, December 12, 2011

I escaped from the Mormons 2 and a half years ago, and...?

in the state where I now reside, far far away from Utah, all my new friends keep nagging at me that I have to go to M, as I was raised Catholic BEFORE the cult got ahold of me in Utah. I was in the cult for 19 years. I was perfect for the pickin' when they recruited me...single white female, new town, new job, no friends...I thought the mormons were my friends, but I found out after a while that they weren't. They were never my friends. Seemed like in UT that if one wasn't a "member" then they were treated by the majority as outcasts. They tried to mold me into a stepford wife, and since I couldn't have kids, that made me a total outcast...My marriage ended in a divorce as well, and the women started getting really "clingy" to their men when they saw me. Like I was gonna "steal" their man?? NOPE, I dint think so!! That was definitely the last thing on my mind. A lot of bad things happened over the years cause I wouldn't conform, so they made my life a living hell. I left that place in the middle of the night, and didn't look back. I went thru deprogramming by myself, cause I couldn't find any cult recovery groups where I now reside. I have read as much as I can get my hands on such as literature from 'Utah Lighthouse Ministries' and it has helped, but how do I deal with my current situation? Are there others out there that have left the so called "church" that went through the same thing I am? Needless to say, I am so sick and tired of being nagged now about how my mom and new friends always say to me "You HAVE to go to M, blah,blah,blah....etc,." I was even "forced" by my devout Catholic mom to go to a faith formation cl after I got back here, and I was miserable. She lied to me and said that it was a cult recovery type of cl. I didn't understand any of it, and I was extremely BORED!!! I only stuck around for maybe 45 minutes of 3 cles on it and then I quit going all together. I have pretty well quit going to m too. I go once in a while, but my heart just isn't in it. A friend of mine said that we cant go out and have fun or go shopping now unless I start going to mass. This is driving me crazy!!! What should I do??? How can I get my mom and my new friends to understand WHY I don't want to go? By the way, I am well over the age of 21, so age is not an issue here.

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